That time of year again – The Dreaded New Years Resolution…

I feel like this subject comes around far too quickly! I was going to say regularly, lol, but seeing as it is literally an annual thing that would have been silly.

It feels like only yesterday I wrote the blog “New Years Resolutions – is this your thing?” So much has changed since I wrote that blog!

At the start of 2017 I felt like I was on top of the world! I confess, I hit a speed bump. Dramatically!

Let me explain

In mid 2016, I returned to the UK for the first time, since leaving 13 years prior. I’d been so ignorant to how much I had missed my “home”. My family, my history, my ME, really. It didn’t take long for the homesickness to kick in. Which morphed itself into depression.

By the start of 2017, I was literally a mess. 2017, for me, has been a struggle. I am open about my struggles, because bottling things up certainly doesn’t help.

How I got back on top

Through 2017, I’ve focused more on ME. Unfortunately, Cute Cuddles has suffered a little from my lack of focus. However, I am feeling more positive about the future. During 2017, I got diagnosed with depression, pulled my hamstring (I’m a runner) and managed to crack some ribs with a nasty viral bug that turned bacterial when I wasn’t looking.

Thankfully, I have the best, most supportive husband ever! He saw that I was struggling, and together we have worked to return me to the UK. I really need more time here, with my family. In my HOME. It’s really hard to explain, because I am lucky enough to have two homes – which I love equally for different reasons.

Feeling Positive about the Future

I thought I would hate the cold weather of a Christmas in England – but I have to confess, I am LOVING it! It’s brisk, and fresh and beautiful in its own unique way.

I am spending Christmas with my Grandma, and my children. I miss my husband dreadfully, but I am thankful for this gift he has given me.

Which brings me back to point – for what feels like he first time in ages, I am feeling positive about the future.

I have a clear head, I no longer feel lost, I have amazing, supportive family and friends and I can not wait to head into 2018 with a smile on my face!

Feeling positive, looking into the future!

Am I going to commit to a New Years Resolution? Yeah, probably! But something wish-washy, like “remember to listen to myself” because there is nothing worse then feeling lost in your own head!

Can you relate? Message me below or on tracy@cutecuddles.co.nz

Take care!

Tracy
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Tracy Nicholls

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